nagdadalawang isip ako kung gagawa ako ng post na kagaya nito.
pero naisip ko, isa lang 'to sa mga paraan na alam ko
para mailabas ko kung ano'ng nararamdaman ko.
sabi nga ng isang kaibigan ko,
"...siguraduhon mo muna kung totoo 'yang namamati mo..."
kasi parang kailan lang daw yan.
pero sabi din nya,
"...pero baka iyo na yan si mga denial mo dati, tapos natipon ngonian..."
pero ano nga ba talaga?
kasi kahit ako di ko rin masabi kung totoo
o sadyang namimiss ko lang talaga sya ng sobra.
kahit ano pa man 'tong nararamdaman ko,
gusto ko lang malaman nya 'to...
I never thought that this would happen.
At di ko rin ginusto to.
Nafeel ko na lang talaga.
I felt something before, pero "false alarm" lang pala.
As in wala namang instances before na crush kita or what.
Wala talaga kasi kuya nga ang turing ko sa'yo.
You are a good friend and okay katrabaho.
Hanggang dun na lang yun, ang sabi ko nga.
Naiinis pa nga ako madalas sa'yo kasi lagi mo akong inaaway.
Inaasar mo din ako. Emphasized na masyado mga mali ko pagdating sa'yo.
Nung umalis ka, nalungkot ako syempre.
Wala ng mang-aaway sa'kin.
Wala na rin akong kasamang mag-overnight sa kanila Coach Jec.
Wala na akong kasangga sa pag-organize ng mga office activity.
At yun, namiss nga kita. Namiss ko yung kuya ko.
Lumipas mga araw at buwan.
Nasanay na lang ako, kami, na wala ka.
Pero hinahanap-hanap ka pa rin namin.
There was something before.
Pero pagkamiss nga lang kasi iba ang gusto ko that time.
2013 came.
I still feel the same for the person.
Pero unti-unti, nawawala na yung pagkagusto ko sa kanya.
Pero di pa rin maiwasang ma-admire yung taong yun.
Sobrang namimiss talaga kita, as in.
I even text you kapag miss kita.
Nasanay talaga ako na magulo ang buhay ko kasi andyan ka.
Heheheheh
Masaya akong uuwi ka bago kami pumunta ng Manila.
At least makakasabay ka samin papunta dun.
Pero nalungkot din ako nung nalaman kong nag-resign ka na nga.
Hindi ko alam kung ano'ng nagustohan ko sa'yo.
Di mo naman nameet standards ko.
Di ka naman sweet. Nakakainis ka nga eh.
Pero wala eh. Ganito nararamdaman ko eh.
Ginawa ko 'to kasi gusto ko lang malaman mo.
Yun lang. What happens after?
Siguro mahihiya na akong lumapit sa'yo.
Di na ako sasama sa'yong mag-overnight sa kanila Coach Jec.
Awkward feeling na pag makita ka.
Ewan. Di ko alam. Bahala na.
I keep on thinking kung sasabihin ko ba 'to sa'yo o hindi.
I value the friendship so much.
Yan ang pumipigil sa'king sabihin 'to sa'yo.
Pero gusto ko ring maramdaman yung
minsan sinubukan kong sabihin kong ano talaga ang nararamdaman ko.
This time,
gusto kong itry kung kaya ko.
If I have the courage to do such.
I wish you all the best.
May you find your heart's deepest desire.
You will always be that person I will always treasure.
I may not make any sense here.
But the bottomline is...
Padangat ta ka na ata.
my guest
He is...
a co-volunteer.
an excellent facilitator.
a colleague.
a jolly emcee.
a well-sought kainuman.
a songer, lalo na sa musicbox.
a very good dancer.
an event manager, lalo na kapag mga raket yan.
a Lakers fan.
a better pusoy dos player than me.
a highly recommended IT consultant.
a dependable mentor.
a mean but good friend.
one of the best persons I met.
isa lang naman siyang kaibigan.
kaibigang may espesyal na lugar sa puso ko ♥
a co-volunteer.
an excellent facilitator.
a colleague.
a jolly emcee.
a well-sought kainuman.
a songer, lalo na sa musicbox.
a very good dancer.
an event manager, lalo na kapag mga raket yan.
a Lakers fan.
a better pusoy dos player than me.
a highly recommended IT consultant.
a dependable mentor.
a mean but good friend.
one of the best persons I met.
isa lang naman siyang kaibigan.
kaibigang may espesyal na lugar sa puso ko ♥
myBoyfriend
almost three years na din akong single.
three years ng umaasa na may darating din na para sa'kin.
i'm not losing hope.
kahit na minsan kinokondisyon ko na ang sarili ko to live alone, on my own.
bahala na...
it's God's will.
it's His plan.
it's His story for me.
but for now,
my boyfriend makes me feel a different world.
my boyfriend makes me happy and makes me feel relaxed.
my boyfriend knows what's in my heart and mind.
three years ng umaasa na may darating din na para sa'kin.
i'm not losing hope.
kahit na minsan kinokondisyon ko na ang sarili ko to live alone, on my own.
bahala na...
it's God's will.
it's His plan.
it's His story for me.
but for now,
my boyfriend makes me feel a different world.
my boyfriend makes me happy and makes me feel relaxed.
my boyfriend knows what's in my heart and mind.
rewardingSUNDAY
12.16.12
around 7:30pm at McDO
i woke up early this morning to attend the Sunday Mass/start of Simbang Gabi.
when i arrived at the apartment,
i gave myself a good breakfast while watching a movie.
i spent my whole morning watching movie...
Breaking Dawn Part 2
StarStruck
27 Dresses
Princess Protection Program
hmmm...
just ate a bit for lunch.
then, went to the laundry shop for my dirty clothes.
the supposed-to-be window shopping at centro, LCC, and SM turned down by a movie treat.
The Hobbit.
still had an hour for the next showing.
went to Mister Donut for my fave hot fudge drink.
wrote a blog entry.
movie time. this is it!
seeing Bilbo made me excited to watch LOTR Trilogy again.
i suddenly missed seeing Frodo, Sam, Legolas, and Aragorn.
the movie is great! i so love it!
BITIN!!!
i never regretted watching it alone.
it was fun.
witnessed a "parade" inside SM.
saw a friend. had a chit-chat while waiting for her date.
walked to centro while music playing.
i don't care about the noise around.
i just love the songs i was hearing.
haist :)
solo dinner at McDO plus a hot fudge sundae for dessert.
thank you Lord for this day.
around 7:30pm at McDO
i woke up early this morning to attend the Sunday Mass/start of Simbang Gabi.
when i arrived at the apartment,
i gave myself a good breakfast while watching a movie.
i spent my whole morning watching movie...
Breaking Dawn Part 2
StarStruck
27 Dresses
Princess Protection Program
hmmm...
just ate a bit for lunch.
then, went to the laundry shop for my dirty clothes.
the supposed-to-be window shopping at centro, LCC, and SM turned down by a movie treat.
The Hobbit.
still had an hour for the next showing.
went to Mister Donut for my fave hot fudge drink.
wrote a blog entry.
movie time. this is it!
seeing Bilbo made me excited to watch LOTR Trilogy again.
i suddenly missed seeing Frodo, Sam, Legolas, and Aragorn.
the movie is great! i so love it!
BITIN!!!
i never regretted watching it alone.
it was fun.
witnessed a "parade" inside SM.
saw a friend. had a chit-chat while waiting for her date.
walked to centro while music playing.
i don't care about the noise around.
i just love the songs i was hearing.
haist :)
solo dinner at McDO plus a hot fudge sundae for dessert.
thank you Lord for this day.
the student-athletes and the girlfriends
madalas, ang girlfriend ng mga lalaking varsity player
eh kung hindi miyembro ng cheerleading group,
pwedeng isa sa mga sikat o magagandang babae sa campus.
pwedeng sa pelikula ang yan.
pwede ring sa totoong buhay.
ewan ko. ang akin lang...
base sa mga nakikita ko kung ano'ng meron sa paligid ko
maswerte ang mga player na 'to sa mga girlfrined nila.
These ladies love these men so much.
hindi madali para sa kanila ang maging girlfriend ng mga varsity player.
hindi sila dapat maging sobrang selosa,
dahil siguradong hindi lang sila ang humahanga sa mga boyfriend nila.
nandyan ang mga babaeng supporters o fans na kinikilig
o sobra kung sumigaw kapag nakakapuntos ang player.
grabeng pag-iintindi at pasensya ang binibigay nila para sa mga boyfriend nila.
nandyan ang praktis, team meetings, extra work, klase, make-up classes,
requirements sa mga subject...at kung anu-ano pa.
hindi ko sinasabing hindi totoo ang mga yan,
pero naiintindihan yan ng mga girlfriend.
they have to.
pero sana lang hindi naaabuso ng mga boyfriend.
laging nandyan ang mga girlfriend kapag may mga laro,
syempre para sumuporta, para magcheer, at para iparamdam sa mga boyfriend nila
na manalo man o matalo, "andito pa rin ako para sa'yo".
sana wag kayong magsawang suportahan, intindihin, at
mahalin ang mga boyfriend nyo
hindi man sila perfect pagdating sa time management
pero sinisikap nilang mabigyan kayo ng oras
mahal kayo ng mga 'yon.
para sa mga boyfriend ng mga babaeng tinutukoy ko:
sana patuloy nyong intindihin din ang mga girlfriend nyo, wag nyong hayaang maubos ang pasensya nila sa inyo, dahil mahal nila kayo.
respect them.
show them that you are worthy of their trust.
i am not a love expert, 'cause i'm really not.
pero alam kong alam nyo kung ano'ng kailangan nyo sa relationship nyo.
baka kasi nakakalimutan nyo,
pinapaalala ko lang.
i hope 2012 had been nice to you couples.
i wish you better relationships this coming 2013.
F.S.S.O.
free.single.serving.outgoing.
naisip ko lang yan to describe us.
ate joy of DAVP.
ate thea of CM.
ate trish ng OSA.
si jese ng Guidance.
at ako ng Athletics.
kami ang fsso single ladies.
last thursday, the original thursday group people had a come back sa coffee & co.
ate thea invited ate joy to join us.
kumustahan.
hindi mawawala 'to sa fsso meetings, even sa kanya-kanyang meetings ng fsso. importante na aware ang bawat isa sa disposition ng bawat isa. this helps para aware naman ang bawat isa sa pinagdadaanan o nangyayari sa colleague.
other matters.
after magkumustahan, any topic will do na. kahit ano pwede ng pag-usapan, kahit sino pwede ng intrigahin. kwentuhan tungkol sa buhay-buhay ng bawat isa lalo na pagdating sa lovelife. in short, sharing lang naman. though may mga insight din. hahahaha. syempre, di rin nawala ang pictorial. iba-ibang anggulo, iba-ibang expression, iba-ibang subject. hahahaha
kainan.
at dahil hindi pa kami nagdidinner, syempre dun na kami kumain. almost isang oras lang naman kaming naghintay sa 2 gambasetti na i-order namin. marami na kaming napag-usapan, dumating na din jaycee, pero wala pa din order namin. at dahil nagugutom na kami, nilantakan na namin ang napakasarap na pagkain na nasa harapan namin. syempre, nagdasal muna kami. sa sobrang sarap at anghang ng gamba, naging linya na ata namin ang "kuya, tubig po." nagorder pa si jaycee ng pizzaroti, tikim naman kaming apat ng tig-isang slice. naisipan din ni ate joy at ate trish na mag-order ng cold drink. eh, nainggit naman kami ni ate thea, kaya order din kami. the cookies and cream was soooo gooooooood!
the call.
isang member ng thursday group ang tumawag. si jayco lang naman. lahat naman kami nakausap nya sa phone. we miss you joining us every first thursday jan! di na rin naiwasang bigyan ng malisya ang pagkakaibigan namin ni wan. syempre, natawa na lang ako. lol.
looking forward to more thursdays with you guys.
at sana mas marami pang kasama.
bago, datihan, o kahit sino pa yan,
ang mahalaga naman ay ang sayang pagsasaluhan. ♥
ate joy of DAVP.
ate thea of CM.
ate trish ng OSA.
si jese ng Guidance.
at ako ng Athletics.
kami ang fsso single ladies.
last thursday, the original thursday group people had a come back sa coffee & co.
ate thea invited ate joy to join us.
kumustahan.
hindi mawawala 'to sa fsso meetings, even sa kanya-kanyang meetings ng fsso. importante na aware ang bawat isa sa disposition ng bawat isa. this helps para aware naman ang bawat isa sa pinagdadaanan o nangyayari sa colleague.
other matters.
after magkumustahan, any topic will do na. kahit ano pwede ng pag-usapan, kahit sino pwede ng intrigahin. kwentuhan tungkol sa buhay-buhay ng bawat isa lalo na pagdating sa lovelife. in short, sharing lang naman. though may mga insight din. hahahaha. syempre, di rin nawala ang pictorial. iba-ibang anggulo, iba-ibang expression, iba-ibang subject. hahahaha
at dahil hindi pa kami nagdidinner, syempre dun na kami kumain. almost isang oras lang naman kaming naghintay sa 2 gambasetti na i-order namin. marami na kaming napag-usapan, dumating na din jaycee, pero wala pa din order namin. at dahil nagugutom na kami, nilantakan na namin ang napakasarap na pagkain na nasa harapan namin. syempre, nagdasal muna kami. sa sobrang sarap at anghang ng gamba, naging linya na ata namin ang "kuya, tubig po." nagorder pa si jaycee ng pizzaroti, tikim naman kaming apat ng tig-isang slice. naisipan din ni ate joy at ate trish na mag-order ng cold drink. eh, nainggit naman kami ni ate thea, kaya order din kami. the cookies and cream was soooo gooooooood!
the call.
isang member ng thursday group ang tumawag. si jayco lang naman. lahat naman kami nakausap nya sa phone. we miss you joining us every first thursday jan! di na rin naiwasang bigyan ng malisya ang pagkakaibigan namin ni wan. syempre, natawa na lang ako. lol.
looking forward to more thursdays with you guys.
at sana mas marami pang kasama.
bago, datihan, o kahit sino pa yan,
ang mahalaga naman ay ang sayang pagsasaluhan. ♥
high hopes
heard that coach carter movie is a good one.
my brother has actually a copy of it.yesterday morning before my classes, i decided to watch it.
too bad i wasn't able to finish it before 10am.
thank God i have enough time after lunch.
i can't help crying while watching the movie.
i was able to relate the movie to what is happening
in our own basketball team, in my family, and in the society.
it motivated me to do something to create change in my own little way.
i hope i can make it into reality.
i believe i can help the youth in our barangay.
it may be simple, but the values they would get is more important.
i saw coach noli in the character of coach carter.
i salute him for his passion and love for the sport and the team.
i just hope that our student-athletes realize the privilege of playing the sport
and being in the program, and of course the importance of being a student.
i am thankful for the opportunity.
i am very thankful that i see the significance of sports in a person's life.
i am blessed being part of this group who believes that
sports can create change, can instill values, and can make a person better.
i hope i can make it into reality.
i believe i can help the youth in our barangay.
it may be simple, but the values they would get is more important.
i saw coach noli in the character of coach carter.
i salute him for his passion and love for the sport and the team.
i just hope that our student-athletes realize the privilege of playing the sport
and being in the program, and of course the importance of being a student.
i am thankful for the opportunity.
i am very thankful that i see the significance of sports in a person's life.
i am blessed being part of this group who believes that
sports can create change, can instill values, and can make a person better.
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