myMap part 1

after we prepared the foods for our noche buena, i did the washing of dishes, naalala ko lang bigla ang sabi ng isang kaibigan. he said that i'm still young and all my plans could change. i told him that i'm sure of the things i want to do. then he asked me "ano baya mga plano mo?" sabi ko, "athletics office, JVP, volunteer work elsewhere, masters degree (he reminded me this), and travel.

by 2012, there are opportunities to travel. comes march, i'll be in a retreat at baguio. i may not be sure whom i'll be with, there's the excitement of the new journey. if ever, it will be my first 5-day silent/directed retreat. by April, FSSO goes to Ilocos for its GGA. Aside from this, i hope for more travels - less cost, more fun. (hahahaha!)

because of superman's advice to grab air fare promos, i wish to visit my two cousins in Cebu in february or march, and explore the wonders of puerto galera even for a short time by june or july. i'm still thinking where to spend my october and december long break.

starting 2012, i'll start my travel experience. along with these, i shall start collecting mugs and keychains from places i'll be going.

school year 2012-2013 will welcome me as a student again - a gradschool student. even i really want to take my second bachelor's degree, it would be difficult on my part as an employee. if ever the morning classes will affect my office works. i guess i'll just have my masteral (MBA) first and think about of a better plan for my CE course in the future. 

since nasa accounting naman ang field ko, i'm planning to take the Certified Bookkeeper Examination. after two and a half years or before i reach the age of 25, I already have two titles after my name (Engr. can be added in the future. hehehe) - 

Ms. Sheryl I. Nacario, CB, MBA

again?

give me reasons to stay,
give me the courage to stay,
nandito ba dapat talaga ako?

please hold my hand and never let go.
i need you, your guidance.
please help me.

bukang-liwayway

nakakatuwa namang magkaro'n ng crush.
bumabalik ako sa pagkabata (bata pa naman pala ako).
sige sa pagkahigh school na lang.
marami akong crush ngayon (hahaha),
crush lang naman eh.


but this guy, this man is really different.
i love the sports which has been part of his life.
i saw his dedication in work and in a group.
i admire how he values his friends and the group he belongs.
he's into photography. i was able to use his dslr.
i'm glad na ipinagkatiwala nya yun sa'kin that time.


akala ko, i'm still in love with a certain person.
pero matagal na pala akong over sa taong yun.
there's no special someone in my life right now,
actually di ko naman kailangan.
crush lang, okay na sa'kin.


as far as i know, he's single yet interested with someone he met.
swerte ang babaeng mamahalin nya.
swerte kaming mga kaibigan nya.
swerte ang grupo kasi nandyan siya.


swerte ako't nakilala ko ang isang taong gaya nya.
a man of passion, good deeds, sincere heart, and sweet smile.

hopes and relationships

picked a card, a journey to a thousand miles begin with a single step.

visited the church this morning, prayed to surpass today's challenges,

apologized for my shortcomings, asked to guide my family,

hoped to create an impact and make a change at work,

trusted God with his plans.

madalas, ipinagdarasal ko na sana siya na nga.
pero alam ko at naniniwala ako,
God has plans for my own good.


10.11.11 (Tuesday)
College Athletics Office

beyond basketball

Last night, I had a gulp session with sir don razon, kuya felix, kuya chok, and audrei (na hindi naman uminom). At first, puro kalokohan lang pinaggagagawa nila, pinagtitripan ako, tapos kwentuhan about the adnu games against different teams. Maraming napagkwentuhan, kung pa'no naging team A si Prila, strengths and weaknesses ng mga team noon and ngayon, decision ni Tanoy to stay in AdNU, at marami pang iba. But big daddy's story made mark in my heart. Like sir don, the passion to help big daddy came into my senses. Gusto kong tabangan si big daddy. As I recall the stories from Soler, Bugoy, and BJ, the more I am motivated to give my time and effort para sa academics niya. I may not be an excellent student but I know I can help him. I must. Sabi nga nila, Big daddy's one of the strongest and biggest recruit of the team. He can do a lot inside the court while he play. Sabi nga ni sir don, favorite niya si big daddy di lang sa gusto niya, but because he wanted this player to have a great life with his grandmother. I want to help big D become a better person. Walang masama sa pagiging Security Guard (ang pangarap ni big D). Tama si coach Noli, big D is more than that. He can be more, and basketball will help him. The team will help him. I will help him.

please...

i badly need to go somewhere.

i badly need a shoulder to cry on.

i badly need a hug.

i badly need you.

wish you were here beside me.

upside down

i woke up early this morning with a mixed emotion.

read the daily bread to start up my day.

i arrived at school just in time, 3 minutes before 8 am.

the thought of what happened before accrossed  my mind,

then i smiled.

a conversation with ma'am rocel added to the goodness of the morning.

i never expected the story she told me.

i just smiled with a happy heart expecting for a better day.

i went to the gym and phelan building, then returned to covered courts.
as i got nearer the production building, someone caught my attention,
and never expected that it was a friend who was on my mind that morning.


i'm not in the mood anymore to write the bad things that happened to me this day.
nasusuya lang ako. napapagal lang ako. nababadtrip na ako.
i may have fault for what happened,
pero i'm really pissed off.


nakakapagod maging mbait,
nakakapagod intindihin ang iba,
nakakapagod tumulong.


i want to cry really hard.
i want to burst this thing out.
gusto kong magmura ng sobra.
gusto kong pumunta sa malayo.


i wish you're back,
i know pagabot sa arog kaning bagay,
you're always there to help and make me feel better.


days there are getting worse.

searching for answers

men and women for others
love of service
passion to help
Magis


ito ang mga salitang nagiging rason sa bawat araw na lumilipas,
ito ang mga rason kung bakit may bigat na nararamdaman sa puso ko.


minsan naisip ko,
tama pa ba'ng ipagpatuloy ang mga sinimulan ko?
dapat pa ba akong magpatuloy?


balewala sa akin ang mga pagod na nararamdaman ko,
sana lang may patutunguhan ang mga sakripisyo ko.
sana, sana, sana...


just this afternoon,
i decided to attend the first friday mass.
at the preface part of the celebration,
something came into my mind.


may mga bagay na mas pipiliin mong iwan,
dahil hindi ka na masaya,
hindi ka na sumasaya.

affected?

crush ko si (tag letter C) Nicol Angelo Cardel
mahal ko si (tag letter M) Chucky Mae Enciso-Reyes
pinagiyakan ko si (tag letter P) Andreco Primero
everlasting love ko si (tag letter E) Edsel Navera
mahal din kaya ako ni (tag letter D) Johanson Disuanco

bestfriend ko si (tag letter B) Tintin Dihiansan
idol ko si (tag letter I) Sheryl Ibo Nacario
sorry kay (tag letter S) Charles Oliver Dadua III

w.o.r.k.

i'm still holding on to the reason na may purpose ako why i stay in the office.
pero bakit parang may nakikita rin akong rason to leave.


marami akong gustong gawin para matulungan ang opisinang 'to,
pero bakit parang sobrang layo ko pa rin.


transfer to another office. resign from work. leave ateneo. stay and continue.
-the choices i had and i have

for you

...i will never get tired of saying thank you.
 
sa pagvolunteer nindo to take part sa intrams, not as players but as volunteers,
sa pagaccept kan challenge of being flexible sa tasks (dawa aram kong sala yan, hehehe),
sa mga sakripisyo before, during, and sana after intrams (hahaha),
sa mga ngiriritan and kulitan moments dawa paragal na,
sa pag-intindi sa mga kapalpakan ko (sorry!),
sa respeto na tinatao nindo sa kada saro, asin
sa barkadahan na igwa kita ngonian.


even if i wanted to enumerate all the things i want to say,
this post is really not enough to express this gratitude.


i sound madrama, pero keri lang.
maogma lang ako ta yaon kamo to help me during the intrams days.

again,

ay11

bawat araw na papalapit sa'yo kinakabahan ako.
isa ka sa mga rason kung bakit gusto ko nang sumuko.
i'm not prepared to handle you this soon.
because of you, my heart and mind got and get tired, always.

please give me a break.
i easily get tired.

i'm praying to God that he'll give me a reason to stay where you are.
damn! i want this to be over.

king and queen

at first, you're not that attracting nor cute.

di nga kita napansin pagdating mo.

but after that coffee break before bed time,

i realized that you're kinda cute.

the next day, napansin kong medyo magulo ka na.

perception ko nga sa'yo, mahilig kang mangulit.

childlike pa ata.

matangos ang ilong.

matangkad.

minsan, pasimple lang ako kung sumulyap sa'yo.

sana di mo napansin.

after the 2nd coffee time that night,

actually milo time for me.

i intentionally left the group para lang makasabay sa'yo.

buti na lang magkatabi rooms natin kaya naabutan kita.

it was a good feeling hearing your good night before I went to bed.

i never thought we'll have a chance na makapag-usap ng konting oras.

i felt something positive about this.

but whatever this is, I'm happy with it,

kahit na alam kong may takot sa puso ko.

14 July 2011

10:38PM

MEFC

I'm kinda tired already. The day is about to end. I feel relaxed compared these past days. Kakatapos ko lang magspongebath. Before I went to my room, I had a conversation or I listened sa kwentuhan sa mess hall. I was with bro glenn, ate yvet, kuya king, and ma'am --- (I forgot her name).

Naisip ko lang, am I really happy with what I have now or where I am now? Is this what God really wants me to be? Good night!

cooowld...

parang mug ko na rin, plain white nga lang 'to.

it's cold here sa office namin, as always.

just having my 3-in-1 coffee while wearing my jacket and doing some office stuff.

last night i was with ate thea, ate trish, jan, kuya felix, coach jay, and rex at Beanbag.

bro. philip came too. (nakwento ko lang)

so, coffee anyone?

almost tears

 06.27.11
11:16 PM

i was so happy few hours ago,
pero bakit naluluha ako ngayon.
i feel so depressed, so down.

gusto kong umiyak ng umiyak ng sobra.
akala ko magiging okay na ang lahat,
pero bakit parang yung dati pa rin,
and parang mas lalong lumala,
mas lalong masakit.

it may sound "madrama",
pero masakit talaga eh.
it really hurts.
the question "why" always run into my head.

i'm tired, really tired.
i feel like giving up.
all i want is to be happy and
make my hopes into reality.

ang daming "sana" sa buhay ko
pero wala akong magagawa,
eto ako ngayon, ganito kami ngayon.

naiiyak na naman ako.
parang gusto ko na lang itulog ang lahat ng bigat
na nararamdaman ko.
pero kinabukasan,
gigising lang naman ako na dala pa rin
ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

ayoko na.
pagod na ako.
i feel very tired and down.
ang sakit, sobrang sakit.
this may root from a simple thing.
pero malaking bagay na 'to para sa'kin.
ang hirap.
ang lungkot.
ang bigat.

pagod na ko,
pagod na pagod.

B day

deep sigh...

first monthsary ko sa work yesterday and I got my first salary.
kinda disappointed, or maybe i was just so busy yesterday that it made my day not so good - meaning bad.

i miss my blog. i miss reading maya's posts, as well as brent's, siyempre pati bloggers kung friends. dami nyo kasi. mahirap isa-isahin. hehehehe

today's another busy day. i just hope it'll not be a bad day.

have a nice day everyone.
hopefully, i'm back

sumaglit lang sa blog ko para marelax ako.

Valenciano, 2011

learnings from Myangligaw:


about hope
its the one thing that holds you with the future.
don't leave regrets in your heart, only hope.
hold on to those that give you meaning, hope. 

and all these, she learned because she encountered pain.


about faith
"...not give up on yourself, not give up on love, and to not give up on God."


that's why I love ate nikki so much, dami kong natututunan sa kanya.
hugs ♥

I'll be over you

I’d read one of your messages.

And a reality came into my mind.

I know this will be difficult for me,

but I have to, I need to.

From now on, I’ll let go of the feelings I have for you.

I’ll move on and just be happy of the friendship we have.

The time I was away, I enjoyed so much.

I enjoyed the new environment with my new friends.

Somehow I forgot about you, but there were times I missed you so much.

You’d always been part of my dreams and hopes.

Minsan nga nasabi ko, I’m willing to forget all what I’ve said about how I want to live my life kung ikaw lang naman ang makakasama ko for the rest of my life.

But I need to wake up from this fantasy and live with the reality.

You’re happy and I should be happy for you.

I know God has reasons why He wants me to do this.

ouch!

ewan ko ba,
ang daming reasons why I should say it.
haist.

deep sigh :(

Dora's exploration

My Zamboanga experience is one of a kind.

ASIA'S LATIN CITY. Mainit sa lugar, as in. Twice or thrice ako kung maligo sa isang araw para lang mapreskohan. Despite that, the city has beautiful spots. Sayang nga lang we were not able to step on the pink sands of Sta. Cruz Island. The giant walls of Fort Pilar lang ang nakita ko when Coach Jec, JC and I were lost before the parade. But the Paseo del Mar was really great. The first time we went there, feeling ko nasa bayside o baywalk lang kami. Maraming tao, maraming kainan, kids were playing, and colorful lights. One thing na nakakatawa yet nakakainis sa Paseo is that isa lang ang comfort room, ginawa pang business, P5 lang naman kasi ang bayad everytime you use it. Hinding-hindi rin makakalimutan nina kuya oskie and coach arnel ang nawitness nilang bombscare panic near the CR (nasa CR lang naman ako, si alvin, and jude that time, hehehe). Kakaiba rin ang tricycle nila, smaller compared ng mga nandito sa Bicol. Buti na lang maliit ako, kahit saan umupo, kasya. Ang daming intersection sa centro pa lang, there were instances na kailangan naming magtanong ng paulit-ulit para lang malocate ang pupuntahan. Hanep na Laundry Express yan, kung saan-saan kami nakarating, nasa malapit lang pala, kasi naman yung sign hindi madaling mapansin. Kaloka! Speaking of laundry, di man lang ginamitan ng fabcon. One funny thing in Zamboanga is that Mindpro mall is pronounced as "meendpro" and not "mayndpro" (para lang maemphasize ang tamang pagbasa, hehehe). Wednesday night when we experienced rain, himala! Of course, the Chavacano language is something new, kaya everytime na may naririnig ako conversing, lagi ko na lang nasasabi, "ano raw?"


PRISAA. I was in Zamboanga primarily because of National PRISAA. We were there to support the Bicol Region, specifically the Ateneans who had participated. I would like to extend my warmest congratulations to Sheena, Joash, and Kevin for bringing home medals in their respective events. I would like also to congratulate Kat, Gawyn, and JC for giving their best in their loved sports. As long as you did your best and all were for the greater glory of God, there's no reason to be disappointed. To Alvin and Jude na nanghihinayang dahil hindi nakapaglaro, wala tayong magagawa. There are still other volleyball competitions that you could join.


AdNU TEAM. Paalala: Humanda yung mga nang-aaway sa'kin. Don't worry, for blog purposes lang nman, hehehe. Peace!



First of all, siyempre, thank you kay Coach Jec dahil isinama niya ako sa Zamboanga, though hesitant ako at first for some reasons, sa opportunity to experience more outside teh walls of Ateneo, and sa treat sa Mr. Bean Cafe and sa Gloria Maris. Grabe ka coach sa mga trip. sobra! 'di ba coach arnel? Lucky Jec even emerged para lang labanan ang boredom. Galing mo coah kumanta ha, pwede na, pwede ng...


Kay Coach Arnel naman na kinatatakutan ko nung una dahil sa nangyari before (sorry na coach! peace na tayo!). Thank you po sa advices, sa mga paalala, and sa pagiging ina't ama sa amin during our stay sa Zamboanga (yudee man!). Kahit inaaway mo ako, I know na mga biro mo lang yun, sana. Ang hinding-hindi ko talaga makakalimutan sa'yo ay ang surprise mo kay joash sa birthday nya, hehehe.


Coach Lito, ang mabait at mapagbirong coach na nakasama ko. Bagay sa'yo coach maging bading, very natural. hehehe. Don't worry po, wala akong pagsasabihan nung mga napag-usapan natin sa Paseo, like the *** ***** story. Salamat din po sa tiwala na binigay mo sa'kin, though simple things lang yun, I do appreciate them. Ikaw lang coach ang may lakas loob magpapicture kay yen of AdZU.


Ibang-iba si Kuya Oskie nung nakasama ko siya sa Zamboanga. Though mapagbiro pa din at inaaway ako, I know he's still the kuya I know. Kahit kino-consider niya akong lason, still thank you sa lahat even before I joined the team sa Zamboanga. Thank you sa pakikihati sa mga papasalubungan, malaking tipid yun, kaya lang may mga hindi ako matiis na binigyan mo. sorry! see you soon. thank you ulit :)

Kat na kidnapable daw sabi ni coach Roger, thank you sa small talks that we had. December pa lang, I used to chat with you na, and I'm glad mas deeper yung mga pinagusapan natin while we were in Zamboanga. salamat. I can suggest blogs for you to read their entries, baka makakuha ka ng insights. Same with others' impression, I can't imagine na ang isang mala-Anghel na tulad mo ay nagta-taekwondo. Congrats and good luck sa OJT mo.


Ang kawawang si Jude  na muntik ng magang rape sa dorm namin is so amazing. Kaya ba nman ang 7 cups of rice sa tiyan niya for just one meal. Bilib na talaga ako sa'yo. Tinalo mo pa ang ibang friends ko. Coach Jec has even named you Gora because of the gay lingo you uttered. May soft copy ka pa ba nung mga documented trips natin especially nugn papunta sa Canellar Barter? hehehe. Naipasa mo pa sa'min yung sumpa mo, buti na lang di tayo natutuluyang nadadapa. Thank you sa bawat lamyerda na kasam ka. Really had fun being with you.


Kay Sheena naman na very strong physically and emotionally, congrats ulit! I always laugh everytime you crack jokes or sing the L-Ray song. Ikaw pa alng ang babaeng nakilala ko na sobrang tibay sa gay lingo, saludo ako sa'yo sis! Good luck sa love life and sa studies, nasa first year ka ap lang, it's a long way ahead, kaya always aim for Magis!


Kay JC na ever love ni Mona Florendo, salamat sa pagpapafeel na I should be comfortable with the group. Yung ukay-ukay mo, sold out na ba? Kahit na naLost tayo during the opening ceremony, ueks lang yun bro, at least di ka na nabilad, di ba? Sorry sa kapalpakan ko sa MRT, hahaha. Thank you din sa concern sa'ming girls.

Kay Gawyn na obvious naman na pinakamatangkad sa grupo, I never thought na mapgbiro and may sense din minsan na kausap, hehehe. peace! Kahit na inagawan nyo ng upuan si Jude sa tricycle, sige lang, may valid reason ka naman. Salamat din sa jamming kahit na little time lang.


Kay Alvin naman na binansagan ng kyongo ng grupo, hayaan mo lang yan. Sabi nga sa'min sa guiance, the more na binibiro ka, it means love ka nila, yan na lang isipin mo. eheheh. Ano, love interest mo ba talaga si Kat? Coach oh. hehehe. peace!


Kay Kevin na madalas lang tawanan ang mga pang-aasar sa kanya, sige lang. Kahit na lagi kang tulog (kahit sa sports complex), nanalo ka naman ng P1500 sa Lucky Jec, di ba? Thank you sa pag-accommodate sa amin sa apartment nyo. Thank you din sa reminders before riding the MRT.

Kay Joash na naCrush-an ng alalay ni Fanny Serrano eh nag-iwan naman ng alaala sa KFC ng... (kaw na lang magkwento sa kanila, basta may magandang nagyari sa kanya sa KFC, di ba?) And you always know that your mommy kris loves you so much. Sabi mo nga, it was the first time you celebrate your birthday outside Bicol, we just hope kahit papano, napasaya namin ang araw mo. Thank you din sa pag-alalay sa'ming girls sa MRT.


Hindi ko alam pa'no ako naging Dora sa linggong yun, bigla na lang. Kahit na nakapunta ako ng San Roque, okay lang, may cute naman akong nakatabi. hehehe. The conversations I had with tita Eugene and Tiwo Willy were very inspiring kahit minsan dragging na, pero honestly, I really learned a lot from them. Thanks to tita for the Chowking treat. I can't believe I had three inuman sessions in Paseo, waah! grabe! The pictorials we had were really enjoying, kahit na chaka ako sa pictures at madalas matakpan. Sa Zamboanga ko rin naexp[erience ang sobrang purga sa 39ers ng Jollibee. I won't forget the videos taken sa dorm ng boys, though hindi ko nakita lahat, nakakatuwa lang sila. Almost every meal, we had to look for something na mura yet masa-satisfy ang mga bulate sa tiyan namin. Thank you for the chance of meeting Coach Roger, other AdZU personnel, and AdZU Student Government. Enjoy din pala maghanap ng cute guys, hahaha. The Cathedral was also great, simple lang pero bigatin sa labas. May mga nakalimutan pa ako, sigurado, hanggang dito na lang.



Bottomline, everything I had in Zamboanga will be forever treasured. Gracias!


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Bienvenidos a La Ciudad e Zamboanga!

unang bese kong sumakay ng eroplano.
ang swerte ko nga dahil nasa may bandang bintana ang upuan ko.
kitang-kita ko ang liwanag sa bawat lugar na madaanan.
sa oras na pagitan ng alas otcho at alas nwebe nang kami'y dumating sa Zamboanga.
AdZU and ruta ng sumundo sa'min, 'yon ang magsisilbing quarters namin, bongga 'di ba?
gutom na kami, ikaw ba naman ang madelayed ang flight at ilang oras maghintay sa airport.
nilakad namin simula AdZU hanggang Alejandra's, malayu-layo rin 'yon.
buti na lang unlimited ang rice, sulit ang bayad. epek pa ang ulam.
ala-Lolos ang lugar, may live singers kasi na gustong pahirapan ni jude.
nagrequest ba naman ng mga birit na kanta.
birthday din ni Coach Arnel ng gabing 'yon, hahaha. (Happy birthday Coach!)
may katagalan nga lang ang paghanda nung order namin.
kaya sugod agad sa pagkain.
may nakilala kami from CAR, athletics Director lang naman ng isang eskwelahan dun. ehehehe
lakad ulit papuntang AdZU.
tapos konting pahinga at freshen' up.
sa wakas oras na rin para matulog.

zambo diary 1

it's 10 minutes before four in the afternoon.

i'm in zamboanga right now.

i was asked by coach jec to join them here for the National PRISAA.

i should have been at the CCMF right now,

sitting on my desk and doing some accounting stuffs.

but again, here i am,

unemployed, having an exposure for my upcoming work (hopefully!)

written last april 8, 2011 at JMRFC, Ateneo de Zamboanga University.

what to follow?

my heart says i should hold on
for there's always hope.

but my mind says letting go is necessary
for i believe you and i will never be.

sorry :(

sorry.

it's just that i'm tired, very exhausted.

i hope you understand.

marami lang akong dinadala ngayon.

sorry.

just give me time.

i'll be fine.

we'll be fine.

thank you.

you know i love you, bff.

doctor, help me

is stressed, yet the stresstab i need is out-of-stock :(
-facebook status ko as of 4:00pm

wala naman akong masyadong ginawa maghapon,
ni hindi nga namin natapos yung pag edit ng project for defense.
yet, i really felt tired and pissed off.
kaya sorry din sa mga natarayan at nakaranas ng sumpong ko,
tao lang.

nashare ko kay mr. maurag ang nafifeel ko.
then, he said na siya lang daw kailangan ko (of course, it was a joke).
i replied na pwede na rin siyang stress ball,
but then ang kailangan ko ay stresstab, at hindi siya yun.
ang kailangan kong stresstab ay out-of-stock na.
di na available sa market, at kahit kailan hinding-hindi ko na pwedeng ma-avail.

hope you're fine dear earthling,
hope i'll be fine.
hugs ♥

discernment of a silent heart

but it's been a long time.
the day i said goodbye to her, i stopped waiting.
i stopped hoping she'll ever come back.
-bakit naman?
yun lang ang paraan para maituloy ko'ng buhay ko na hindi siya kasama.
(a conversation from the movie miss you like crazy)

minsan, kailangan mong magpaalam sa isang tao dahil alam mong yun lang ang paraan para maipagpatuloy mo ang buhay mo. buhay na hindi man siya kasama, kontento ka na dahil alam mong yun ang tama. kahit na alam mong masasaktan ka at hindi magiging masaya.

pero iba pala talaga kapag wala na siya sa buhay mo, kahit pansamantala lang, hahanap-hanapin mo ang tao.
masakit. nakakalungkot. nakakapanibago.
kaya kahit na alam mong ikaw ang masasaktan sa huli, pinili mo pa ring makasama ang taong mahal mo.
itatago mo na lang ang lahat, para lang makasama siya.




kunwari you live in a perfect world.
kunwari walang nakasakit.
kunwari walang masasaktan.
sino'ng pipiliin mo?


alam mo namang hinding-hindi ka niya pipiliin, dahil sa una pa lang alam mo na kung ano ka sa buhay niya.
kaibigan ka lang niya, kaibigan lang.
mas masakit. hindi ba?
pero ganyan talaga ata kapag nagmamahal ang tao.

i will always love you.
but you will always love him.

(line from the movie miss you like crazy)

akala mo tapos na ang lahat.
akala mo tanggap mo na kung ano ka sa buhay niya,
at kung ano siya sa buhay mo.
pero hindi pa pala.
nandyan pa rin nakatago sa kailaliman ng puso mo.
pilit kang ginugulo at pinahihirapan.

chillax

saw these sa computer ni kuya ely.
naalala ko tuloy bigla new year's resolution ko

save.run.study.help.pray.

pati ang movie na eat.pray.love.

wala lang,
just relaxing myself.
had a bloody exam kanina.

bigHugs for tediBir

thursday afternoon, 02:51 pm to be exact.

i wrote in my scratch paper:

saw my tediBir with a stress-ball. i hope he's fine.

approached him, then hugged him.

miss u necu.

                                                                - mamaBir :)

thank you sa text and tawag mo last night.

miss na din kita, sobra.

really glad to see you.

bigHugs anak.

to the debutant

we go home together. laugh, cry, sigh, celebrate life together. how can i forget this girl, now turning into a beatiful butterfly, trying to escape from her pupa! without this caterpillar (haha), i could have not discovered the beauty of life -- ang kagandahan ng paglalakwatsa, pagpunta ng school kahit wala namang commitment, paguwi ng late dahil wala lang, di ko malalaman kung nasa'n ang Barcelona (haha! peace tau!), o di ko makikilala si Alicia Key.

basta, my life became more complicated yet meaningful and memorable. if i can only compute the time thatw e're together, i guess she's one of those persons whom i bonded with the longest. and i like the idea that we're keeping the bond we've established way back highschool. i admit, i'm guilty for loving her -- nakakatuwa kasi siya kapag tumatawa ng walang mata, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi responsible siya, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi 'di siya gano'n kadalingmagalit, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi ang dami niyang hirit na napakaout of this world, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi si Sheryl ay si Sheryl. Sheryl man siya sa iba; Kit, Barcelona, USA, baduya, at kahit ano pang tawag sa kanya, the Sheryl that i knew way back elementary years is still the She that i know now. it's just that i've known her better whether she like it or not.

i'm part of her history, her present, and her future. as this lovely lady tries to escape from her pupa, i promise to be with her as she faces life now as a butterfly. Happy Birthday Sheryl! i guess, i'm the last person to greet you a happy happy birthday, it's because i intended to greet you at the end of your speciald ay to show you that, i'm also the last person that will be standing there for you, to catch you whenever you feel like falling, the last person that you know will be there and will always be there for you until your last breathe of life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS. SHERYL IBO NACARIO!

Rosemarie_07/23/2008

thank you rose for this wonderful message you had sent three years ago.

i love you :)

love stories

1.14.11, 9:17am

kagabi, hindi ko maiwasang tumawa't kiligin sa pelikulang napanood ko.

grabe ang mga banat. hindi ko kinaya. sa isip ko lang parang

ang sarap ma-inlove.

theoretically, oo, masarap ma-inlove.

reality check, ewan ko na lang.

isang buntong hininga...

minsan, kailangan mong manahimik at ipaubaya ang taong mahal mo sa iba kahit na mahal na mahal mo siya.

minsan, kailangan mong pakawalan ang taong mahal mo

dahil alam mong hindi na siya masaya sa'yo.
handa kang palayain siya dahil alam mong mas magiging masaya siya.

minsan, kailangan mong iwan ang isang tao

dahil hindi mo na nararamdamang may halaga ka pa sa kanya.

marahil ay mahal ka pa niya, ngunit hindi sapat na alam mo 'yon.

minsan, naawa ka lang sa tao kaya pinili mong mahalin siya

kahit na alam mong kahit kailan ay wala kang maibibigay na pagmamahal sa kanya.

minsan naman, kahit alam mong bawal ay pinili mo pa ring mahalin ang isang tao.

pero sa huli, mas gugustohin mo pang masakatan siya kaysa lumalim ang pag-ibig na bawal.

minsan, sa sobrang espesyal mo sa isang tao, nahuhulog ka na rin sa kanya.

pero masakit nga lang tanggaping hindi sapat ang pagkakakilala mo sa kanya para mahalin siya.

mas gusto mong masaktan na lang siya ngayon, kaysa patuloy mo siyang paniwalaing mahal mo rin siya.

minsan, okay na sana ang lahat.

pero, sadyang totoo nga lang na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay mamahalin ka ng taong mahal mo tulad ng pagmamahal mo sa kanya.

minsan din, nalilito ka na kung ano talagang nararamdaman mo para sa isang tao,

mahal mo ba siya, namimiss lang, o sadyang alam at ramdam mo lang na mahal ka niya?

minsan nga, hindi mo lubos akalaing mamahalin mo ang isang tao ng sobra-sobra, na handa kang ilihim ang lahat at panatilihin na lamang ang isang pagkakaibigan.

maraming love story sa paligid natin,

iba-iba, kanya-kanya, at natatangi.

ikaw ano'ng kwento mo?

jamming.anniversary.picnic

una, salamat ki lord ta maray su panahon kadtong alduw na adto.
ikarwa, mamuya ta nakaibanan ko mga pinsan kong kaclose ko, tsaka mga barkada ko.
ikatlo, mas mamuya ta magayon su salog, tsaka nakapagrelax talaga akong sobra.

pira sana yan sa mga rason ngata ta gusto kong ipost sadi blog ko su nangyari ku dominggo.

para ku mga nakaibanan ko, para kaninyo ading post na adi.

momi: pasensya ka na sa pinsan ko, makuliton talaga yan nin maray, pero mabuot yan asin astig kaibahan. sana naogma ka man na kaibahan kami. papicture na, hehehe. dae ka pati nagkarigos sa salog.

angel: 'di pagkulgan ah pinsan ko ha. payaba ko yan. kami ni emon ah makalaban mo pag isi na. hehehe. happy happy kaninyo. magtaga-maan man padi ta sabi mo ngani nakapirang aksidnte na ika.

kuya jun-jun: kadakul tang dapat pagusipan. pirmi man kaya ikang uda o arayo. hahaha. salamat ku oras. diri ko tabi niraut lighter mo. binasa mo pati ako, pero okay lang ta nakabalus man ako kanimo.

lala: happy happy man. iba talaga pag nagpapadangat. hehehe. salamat ku singsing na tinao mo. ititreasure ko adto. dawa inaagnuw na kita ku tubig, dawa remate ika ki momi, dawa nagsama kamong plato ni angel, o dawa unong mangyari, payaba ko ika.

emon: san na naman ika manila. kaya minsan abu kong maguli ta uda man ika sadto. hahaha. basta, ah masasabi ko lang is salamat na maray. mag-iringug ko sabi ni may ita. hahaha. ka sunod ako naman ah taya. see you ka weeekends padi-slash-pinsan. hahaha

ginibo ko adi ku january 05...