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bawat araw na papalapit sa'yo kinakabahan ako.
isa ka sa mga rason kung bakit gusto ko nang sumuko.
i'm not prepared to handle you this soon.
because of you, my heart and mind got and get tired, always.

please give me a break.
i easily get tired.

i'm praying to God that he'll give me a reason to stay where you are.
damn! i want this to be over.

2 comments:

penelope strohem said...

I don't know about you but I think you must first know what is it that you want for yourself right now, we're so young, sometimes I wish I could just skip the whole twenty-something experience so that we'll know where should we really be. But then again, age nor time can give us no guarantee. That would also erase the time we need to make all lessons sink into our system.

Nowadays, I'm slowly feeling (on the experience level rather than the head level) that much of our directions as well as convictions are a product of CHOICE less than luck or fate...

Nakakapagod no? I'm just waiting for the right time and the right nudge that would tell me that it's time to go. For the meantime, kapit lang. kailangan ma-upo at magplano. =)

Ako Si Nikki said...

ei ei.. right on that urbanmiss.. this afternoon i shared with my officemates that i am at the most part thankful that i am surviving this place.. im proud of myself for turning a year already here.. tama, much of our directions really are products of our Choice.. fate i believe is a product of Choice too..

i may still be lost a lot of times here.. but then again, i also wonder if i did not choose to leave home and remained in my comfort zone.. truly, it is hard in here, but i also find consolation and humility in this experience.. i know i am a better person because of this..

when is the right time? they said you will know... i say, the right time comes when you stand up, raise your chin, and say to yourself 'to hell with plans, i just want to go'...

big choices are for the brave.. big choices equal LIFE..

goodluck boss.. sige sana... :)