please...

i badly need to go somewhere.

i badly need a shoulder to cry on.

i badly need a hug.

i badly need you.

wish you were here beside me.

upside down

i woke up early this morning with a mixed emotion.

read the daily bread to start up my day.

i arrived at school just in time, 3 minutes before 8 am.

the thought of what happened before accrossed  my mind,

then i smiled.

a conversation with ma'am rocel added to the goodness of the morning.

i never expected the story she told me.

i just smiled with a happy heart expecting for a better day.

i went to the gym and phelan building, then returned to covered courts.
as i got nearer the production building, someone caught my attention,
and never expected that it was a friend who was on my mind that morning.


i'm not in the mood anymore to write the bad things that happened to me this day.
nasusuya lang ako. napapagal lang ako. nababadtrip na ako.
i may have fault for what happened,
pero i'm really pissed off.


nakakapagod maging mbait,
nakakapagod intindihin ang iba,
nakakapagod tumulong.


i want to cry really hard.
i want to burst this thing out.
gusto kong magmura ng sobra.
gusto kong pumunta sa malayo.


i wish you're back,
i know pagabot sa arog kaning bagay,
you're always there to help and make me feel better.


days there are getting worse.

searching for answers

men and women for others
love of service
passion to help
Magis


ito ang mga salitang nagiging rason sa bawat araw na lumilipas,
ito ang mga rason kung bakit may bigat na nararamdaman sa puso ko.


minsan naisip ko,
tama pa ba'ng ipagpatuloy ang mga sinimulan ko?
dapat pa ba akong magpatuloy?


balewala sa akin ang mga pagod na nararamdaman ko,
sana lang may patutunguhan ang mga sakripisyo ko.
sana, sana, sana...


just this afternoon,
i decided to attend the first friday mass.
at the preface part of the celebration,
something came into my mind.


may mga bagay na mas pipiliin mong iwan,
dahil hindi ka na masaya,
hindi ka na sumasaya.

affected?

crush ko si (tag letter C) Nicol Angelo Cardel
mahal ko si (tag letter M) Chucky Mae Enciso-Reyes
pinagiyakan ko si (tag letter P) Andreco Primero
everlasting love ko si (tag letter E) Edsel Navera
mahal din kaya ako ni (tag letter D) Johanson Disuanco

bestfriend ko si (tag letter B) Tintin Dihiansan
idol ko si (tag letter I) Sheryl Ibo Nacario
sorry kay (tag letter S) Charles Oliver Dadua III

w.o.r.k.

i'm still holding on to the reason na may purpose ako why i stay in the office.
pero bakit parang may nakikita rin akong rason to leave.


marami akong gustong gawin para matulungan ang opisinang 'to,
pero bakit parang sobrang layo ko pa rin.


transfer to another office. resign from work. leave ateneo. stay and continue.
-the choices i had and i have

for you

...i will never get tired of saying thank you.
 
sa pagvolunteer nindo to take part sa intrams, not as players but as volunteers,
sa pagaccept kan challenge of being flexible sa tasks (dawa aram kong sala yan, hehehe),
sa mga sakripisyo before, during, and sana after intrams (hahaha),
sa mga ngiriritan and kulitan moments dawa paragal na,
sa pag-intindi sa mga kapalpakan ko (sorry!),
sa respeto na tinatao nindo sa kada saro, asin
sa barkadahan na igwa kita ngonian.


even if i wanted to enumerate all the things i want to say,
this post is really not enough to express this gratitude.


i sound madrama, pero keri lang.
maogma lang ako ta yaon kamo to help me during the intrams days.

again,

ay11

bawat araw na papalapit sa'yo kinakabahan ako.
isa ka sa mga rason kung bakit gusto ko nang sumuko.
i'm not prepared to handle you this soon.
because of you, my heart and mind got and get tired, always.

please give me a break.
i easily get tired.

i'm praying to God that he'll give me a reason to stay where you are.
damn! i want this to be over.