myMap part 1

after we prepared the foods for our noche buena, i did the washing of dishes, naalala ko lang bigla ang sabi ng isang kaibigan. he said that i'm still young and all my plans could change. i told him that i'm sure of the things i want to do. then he asked me "ano baya mga plano mo?" sabi ko, "athletics office, JVP, volunteer work elsewhere, masters degree (he reminded me this), and travel.

by 2012, there are opportunities to travel. comes march, i'll be in a retreat at baguio. i may not be sure whom i'll be with, there's the excitement of the new journey. if ever, it will be my first 5-day silent/directed retreat. by April, FSSO goes to Ilocos for its GGA. Aside from this, i hope for more travels - less cost, more fun. (hahahaha!)

because of superman's advice to grab air fare promos, i wish to visit my two cousins in Cebu in february or march, and explore the wonders of puerto galera even for a short time by june or july. i'm still thinking where to spend my october and december long break.

starting 2012, i'll start my travel experience. along with these, i shall start collecting mugs and keychains from places i'll be going.

school year 2012-2013 will welcome me as a student again - a gradschool student. even i really want to take my second bachelor's degree, it would be difficult on my part as an employee. if ever the morning classes will affect my office works. i guess i'll just have my masteral (MBA) first and think about of a better plan for my CE course in the future. 

since nasa accounting naman ang field ko, i'm planning to take the Certified Bookkeeper Examination. after two and a half years or before i reach the age of 25, I already have two titles after my name (Engr. can be added in the future. hehehe) - 

Ms. Sheryl I. Nacario, CB, MBA

again?

give me reasons to stay,
give me the courage to stay,
nandito ba dapat talaga ako?

please hold my hand and never let go.
i need you, your guidance.
please help me.

bukang-liwayway

nakakatuwa namang magkaro'n ng crush.
bumabalik ako sa pagkabata (bata pa naman pala ako).
sige sa pagkahigh school na lang.
marami akong crush ngayon (hahaha),
crush lang naman eh.


but this guy, this man is really different.
i love the sports which has been part of his life.
i saw his dedication in work and in a group.
i admire how he values his friends and the group he belongs.
he's into photography. i was able to use his dslr.
i'm glad na ipinagkatiwala nya yun sa'kin that time.


akala ko, i'm still in love with a certain person.
pero matagal na pala akong over sa taong yun.
there's no special someone in my life right now,
actually di ko naman kailangan.
crush lang, okay na sa'kin.


as far as i know, he's single yet interested with someone he met.
swerte ang babaeng mamahalin nya.
swerte kaming mga kaibigan nya.
swerte ang grupo kasi nandyan siya.


swerte ako't nakilala ko ang isang taong gaya nya.
a man of passion, good deeds, sincere heart, and sweet smile.

hopes and relationships

picked a card, a journey to a thousand miles begin with a single step.

visited the church this morning, prayed to surpass today's challenges,

apologized for my shortcomings, asked to guide my family,

hoped to create an impact and make a change at work,

trusted God with his plans.

madalas, ipinagdarasal ko na sana siya na nga.
pero alam ko at naniniwala ako,
God has plans for my own good.


10.11.11 (Tuesday)
College Athletics Office

beyond basketball

Last night, I had a gulp session with sir don razon, kuya felix, kuya chok, and audrei (na hindi naman uminom). At first, puro kalokohan lang pinaggagagawa nila, pinagtitripan ako, tapos kwentuhan about the adnu games against different teams. Maraming napagkwentuhan, kung pa'no naging team A si Prila, strengths and weaknesses ng mga team noon and ngayon, decision ni Tanoy to stay in AdNU, at marami pang iba. But big daddy's story made mark in my heart. Like sir don, the passion to help big daddy came into my senses. Gusto kong tabangan si big daddy. As I recall the stories from Soler, Bugoy, and BJ, the more I am motivated to give my time and effort para sa academics niya. I may not be an excellent student but I know I can help him. I must. Sabi nga nila, Big daddy's one of the strongest and biggest recruit of the team. He can do a lot inside the court while he play. Sabi nga ni sir don, favorite niya si big daddy di lang sa gusto niya, but because he wanted this player to have a great life with his grandmother. I want to help big D become a better person. Walang masama sa pagiging Security Guard (ang pangarap ni big D). Tama si coach Noli, big D is more than that. He can be more, and basketball will help him. The team will help him. I will help him.

please...

i badly need to go somewhere.

i badly need a shoulder to cry on.

i badly need a hug.

i badly need you.

wish you were here beside me.

upside down

i woke up early this morning with a mixed emotion.

read the daily bread to start up my day.

i arrived at school just in time, 3 minutes before 8 am.

the thought of what happened before accrossed  my mind,

then i smiled.

a conversation with ma'am rocel added to the goodness of the morning.

i never expected the story she told me.

i just smiled with a happy heart expecting for a better day.

i went to the gym and phelan building, then returned to covered courts.
as i got nearer the production building, someone caught my attention,
and never expected that it was a friend who was on my mind that morning.


i'm not in the mood anymore to write the bad things that happened to me this day.
nasusuya lang ako. napapagal lang ako. nababadtrip na ako.
i may have fault for what happened,
pero i'm really pissed off.


nakakapagod maging mbait,
nakakapagod intindihin ang iba,
nakakapagod tumulong.


i want to cry really hard.
i want to burst this thing out.
gusto kong magmura ng sobra.
gusto kong pumunta sa malayo.


i wish you're back,
i know pagabot sa arog kaning bagay,
you're always there to help and make me feel better.


days there are getting worse.