bukang-liwayway

nakakatuwa namang magkaro'n ng crush.
bumabalik ako sa pagkabata (bata pa naman pala ako).
sige sa pagkahigh school na lang.
marami akong crush ngayon (hahaha),
crush lang naman eh.


but this guy, this man is really different.
i love the sports which has been part of his life.
i saw his dedication in work and in a group.
i admire how he values his friends and the group he belongs.
he's into photography. i was able to use his dslr.
i'm glad na ipinagkatiwala nya yun sa'kin that time.


akala ko, i'm still in love with a certain person.
pero matagal na pala akong over sa taong yun.
there's no special someone in my life right now,
actually di ko naman kailangan.
crush lang, okay na sa'kin.


as far as i know, he's single yet interested with someone he met.
swerte ang babaeng mamahalin nya.
swerte kaming mga kaibigan nya.
swerte ang grupo kasi nandyan siya.


swerte ako't nakilala ko ang isang taong gaya nya.
a man of passion, good deeds, sincere heart, and sweet smile.

hopes and relationships

picked a card, a journey to a thousand miles begin with a single step.

visited the church this morning, prayed to surpass today's challenges,

apologized for my shortcomings, asked to guide my family,

hoped to create an impact and make a change at work,

trusted God with his plans.

madalas, ipinagdarasal ko na sana siya na nga.
pero alam ko at naniniwala ako,
God has plans for my own good.


10.11.11 (Tuesday)
College Athletics Office

beyond basketball

Last night, I had a gulp session with sir don razon, kuya felix, kuya chok, and audrei (na hindi naman uminom). At first, puro kalokohan lang pinaggagagawa nila, pinagtitripan ako, tapos kwentuhan about the adnu games against different teams. Maraming napagkwentuhan, kung pa'no naging team A si Prila, strengths and weaknesses ng mga team noon and ngayon, decision ni Tanoy to stay in AdNU, at marami pang iba. But big daddy's story made mark in my heart. Like sir don, the passion to help big daddy came into my senses. Gusto kong tabangan si big daddy. As I recall the stories from Soler, Bugoy, and BJ, the more I am motivated to give my time and effort para sa academics niya. I may not be an excellent student but I know I can help him. I must. Sabi nga nila, Big daddy's one of the strongest and biggest recruit of the team. He can do a lot inside the court while he play. Sabi nga ni sir don, favorite niya si big daddy di lang sa gusto niya, but because he wanted this player to have a great life with his grandmother. I want to help big D become a better person. Walang masama sa pagiging Security Guard (ang pangarap ni big D). Tama si coach Noli, big D is more than that. He can be more, and basketball will help him. The team will help him. I will help him.

please...

i badly need to go somewhere.

i badly need a shoulder to cry on.

i badly need a hug.

i badly need you.

wish you were here beside me.

upside down

i woke up early this morning with a mixed emotion.

read the daily bread to start up my day.

i arrived at school just in time, 3 minutes before 8 am.

the thought of what happened before accrossed  my mind,

then i smiled.

a conversation with ma'am rocel added to the goodness of the morning.

i never expected the story she told me.

i just smiled with a happy heart expecting for a better day.

i went to the gym and phelan building, then returned to covered courts.
as i got nearer the production building, someone caught my attention,
and never expected that it was a friend who was on my mind that morning.


i'm not in the mood anymore to write the bad things that happened to me this day.
nasusuya lang ako. napapagal lang ako. nababadtrip na ako.
i may have fault for what happened,
pero i'm really pissed off.


nakakapagod maging mbait,
nakakapagod intindihin ang iba,
nakakapagod tumulong.


i want to cry really hard.
i want to burst this thing out.
gusto kong magmura ng sobra.
gusto kong pumunta sa malayo.


i wish you're back,
i know pagabot sa arog kaning bagay,
you're always there to help and make me feel better.


days there are getting worse.

searching for answers

men and women for others
love of service
passion to help
Magis


ito ang mga salitang nagiging rason sa bawat araw na lumilipas,
ito ang mga rason kung bakit may bigat na nararamdaman sa puso ko.


minsan naisip ko,
tama pa ba'ng ipagpatuloy ang mga sinimulan ko?
dapat pa ba akong magpatuloy?


balewala sa akin ang mga pagod na nararamdaman ko,
sana lang may patutunguhan ang mga sakripisyo ko.
sana, sana, sana...


just this afternoon,
i decided to attend the first friday mass.
at the preface part of the celebration,
something came into my mind.


may mga bagay na mas pipiliin mong iwan,
dahil hindi ka na masaya,
hindi ka na sumasaya.

affected?

crush ko si (tag letter C) Nicol Angelo Cardel
mahal ko si (tag letter M) Chucky Mae Enciso-Reyes
pinagiyakan ko si (tag letter P) Andreco Primero
everlasting love ko si (tag letter E) Edsel Navera
mahal din kaya ako ni (tag letter D) Johanson Disuanco

bestfriend ko si (tag letter B) Tintin Dihiansan
idol ko si (tag letter I) Sheryl Ibo Nacario
sorry kay (tag letter S) Charles Oliver Dadua III