what to follow?

my heart says i should hold on
for there's always hope.

but my mind says letting go is necessary
for i believe you and i will never be.

sorry :(

sorry.

it's just that i'm tired, very exhausted.

i hope you understand.

marami lang akong dinadala ngayon.

sorry.

just give me time.

i'll be fine.

we'll be fine.

thank you.

you know i love you, bff.

doctor, help me

is stressed, yet the stresstab i need is out-of-stock :(
-facebook status ko as of 4:00pm

wala naman akong masyadong ginawa maghapon,
ni hindi nga namin natapos yung pag edit ng project for defense.
yet, i really felt tired and pissed off.
kaya sorry din sa mga natarayan at nakaranas ng sumpong ko,
tao lang.

nashare ko kay mr. maurag ang nafifeel ko.
then, he said na siya lang daw kailangan ko (of course, it was a joke).
i replied na pwede na rin siyang stress ball,
but then ang kailangan ko ay stresstab, at hindi siya yun.
ang kailangan kong stresstab ay out-of-stock na.
di na available sa market, at kahit kailan hinding-hindi ko na pwedeng ma-avail.

hope you're fine dear earthling,
hope i'll be fine.
hugs ♥

discernment of a silent heart

but it's been a long time.
the day i said goodbye to her, i stopped waiting.
i stopped hoping she'll ever come back.
-bakit naman?
yun lang ang paraan para maituloy ko'ng buhay ko na hindi siya kasama.
(a conversation from the movie miss you like crazy)

minsan, kailangan mong magpaalam sa isang tao dahil alam mong yun lang ang paraan para maipagpatuloy mo ang buhay mo. buhay na hindi man siya kasama, kontento ka na dahil alam mong yun ang tama. kahit na alam mong masasaktan ka at hindi magiging masaya.

pero iba pala talaga kapag wala na siya sa buhay mo, kahit pansamantala lang, hahanap-hanapin mo ang tao.
masakit. nakakalungkot. nakakapanibago.
kaya kahit na alam mong ikaw ang masasaktan sa huli, pinili mo pa ring makasama ang taong mahal mo.
itatago mo na lang ang lahat, para lang makasama siya.




kunwari you live in a perfect world.
kunwari walang nakasakit.
kunwari walang masasaktan.
sino'ng pipiliin mo?


alam mo namang hinding-hindi ka niya pipiliin, dahil sa una pa lang alam mo na kung ano ka sa buhay niya.
kaibigan ka lang niya, kaibigan lang.
mas masakit. hindi ba?
pero ganyan talaga ata kapag nagmamahal ang tao.

i will always love you.
but you will always love him.

(line from the movie miss you like crazy)

akala mo tapos na ang lahat.
akala mo tanggap mo na kung ano ka sa buhay niya,
at kung ano siya sa buhay mo.
pero hindi pa pala.
nandyan pa rin nakatago sa kailaliman ng puso mo.
pilit kang ginugulo at pinahihirapan.

chillax

saw these sa computer ni kuya ely.
naalala ko tuloy bigla new year's resolution ko

save.run.study.help.pray.

pati ang movie na eat.pray.love.

wala lang,
just relaxing myself.
had a bloody exam kanina.

bigHugs for tediBir

thursday afternoon, 02:51 pm to be exact.

i wrote in my scratch paper:

saw my tediBir with a stress-ball. i hope he's fine.

approached him, then hugged him.

miss u necu.

                                                                - mamaBir :)

thank you sa text and tawag mo last night.

miss na din kita, sobra.

really glad to see you.

bigHugs anak.

to the debutant

we go home together. laugh, cry, sigh, celebrate life together. how can i forget this girl, now turning into a beatiful butterfly, trying to escape from her pupa! without this caterpillar (haha), i could have not discovered the beauty of life -- ang kagandahan ng paglalakwatsa, pagpunta ng school kahit wala namang commitment, paguwi ng late dahil wala lang, di ko malalaman kung nasa'n ang Barcelona (haha! peace tau!), o di ko makikilala si Alicia Key.

basta, my life became more complicated yet meaningful and memorable. if i can only compute the time thatw e're together, i guess she's one of those persons whom i bonded with the longest. and i like the idea that we're keeping the bond we've established way back highschool. i admit, i'm guilty for loving her -- nakakatuwa kasi siya kapag tumatawa ng walang mata, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi responsible siya, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi 'di siya gano'n kadalingmagalit, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi ang dami niyang hirit na napakaout of this world, nakakatuwa kasi siya kasi si Sheryl ay si Sheryl. Sheryl man siya sa iba; Kit, Barcelona, USA, baduya, at kahit ano pang tawag sa kanya, the Sheryl that i knew way back elementary years is still the She that i know now. it's just that i've known her better whether she like it or not.

i'm part of her history, her present, and her future. as this lovely lady tries to escape from her pupa, i promise to be with her as she faces life now as a butterfly. Happy Birthday Sheryl! i guess, i'm the last person to greet you a happy happy birthday, it's because i intended to greet you at the end of your speciald ay to show you that, i'm also the last person that will be standing there for you, to catch you whenever you feel like falling, the last person that you know will be there and will always be there for you until your last breathe of life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS. SHERYL IBO NACARIO!

Rosemarie_07/23/2008

thank you rose for this wonderful message you had sent three years ago.

i love you :)