please...

i badly need to go somewhere.

i badly need a shoulder to cry on.

i badly need a hug.

i badly need you.

wish you were here beside me.

upside down

i woke up early this morning with a mixed emotion.

read the daily bread to start up my day.

i arrived at school just in time, 3 minutes before 8 am.

the thought of what happened before accrossed  my mind,

then i smiled.

a conversation with ma'am rocel added to the goodness of the morning.

i never expected the story she told me.

i just smiled with a happy heart expecting for a better day.

i went to the gym and phelan building, then returned to covered courts.
as i got nearer the production building, someone caught my attention,
and never expected that it was a friend who was on my mind that morning.


i'm not in the mood anymore to write the bad things that happened to me this day.
nasusuya lang ako. napapagal lang ako. nababadtrip na ako.
i may have fault for what happened,
pero i'm really pissed off.


nakakapagod maging mbait,
nakakapagod intindihin ang iba,
nakakapagod tumulong.


i want to cry really hard.
i want to burst this thing out.
gusto kong magmura ng sobra.
gusto kong pumunta sa malayo.


i wish you're back,
i know pagabot sa arog kaning bagay,
you're always there to help and make me feel better.


days there are getting worse.

searching for answers

men and women for others
love of service
passion to help
Magis


ito ang mga salitang nagiging rason sa bawat araw na lumilipas,
ito ang mga rason kung bakit may bigat na nararamdaman sa puso ko.


minsan naisip ko,
tama pa ba'ng ipagpatuloy ang mga sinimulan ko?
dapat pa ba akong magpatuloy?


balewala sa akin ang mga pagod na nararamdaman ko,
sana lang may patutunguhan ang mga sakripisyo ko.
sana, sana, sana...


just this afternoon,
i decided to attend the first friday mass.
at the preface part of the celebration,
something came into my mind.


may mga bagay na mas pipiliin mong iwan,
dahil hindi ka na masaya,
hindi ka na sumasaya.